Here we are again..

..I'm talking about things that I'd better stay quiet about. But what in hell does the same thing happen over and over again? I mean first I was angry because I was sad because things didn't turn out as I expected them to. But now after this has happened several times, I have written about this at least times, I guess I must be doing something, or not doing something that makes this happen over and over again. It's always the same. I think I have started to understand now what this happens. Maybe because I expect things that I know wont happen.

At the same time I'm doubtful, because it doesn't feel right either. It feels like is everyone always is saying no, or change their mind in the last minute, or call and say "something else came between". But why is always something happening? And why do they expect me to say yes and wait? I'm not talking about one person more like a couple or three persons I know. And maybe two more.. I'll give you an example. Last month I wanted to go to IKEA, so I just talked about it with my mom, and she said "We can go together.." So I said yes that is a great idea because I don't want to go alone. So I call my sister and ask her if she wants to come with us and she says yes, So we set a date (Tuseday before lunch). Monday evening I call my sister and ask her if I should pick her up, then she says "I have to stay at home and do my homework".. So when has she started to care about that. So I call my mom and she says, no something else came between, but let's go on Wednesday instead. So on Wednesday I call her, but then she says "We have to go on Friday instead because I don't have time". On friday my sister calls my mom and after that she calls me and asks me where I am.. I started thinking.. What? So she says "Mom is wating for you" When did she tell me that.? So we go to IKEA but it's late and we have to hurry because the close early. But if I say I can't or I don't have time it feels like they become really angry. I feel like just saying no because because.. and not because I'm busy. But I know I would feel really bad after that so I never do that..This is just stupid, and this makes me tired. I'm just fed up with it. I guess I'm not the only one, or I know that. Now I just want to find some kind of solution..