Have you ever had a premonition? Did you heed it?
Submitted by aynge.
I think I think that premonitions are moments when you pay more attention to everything around you than usually. If you do that your subconscious can like reach you and you "see" things you normally wouldn't. Earlier this year I dreamed that my friend fell ill, and a week later she did, but there was nothing to do about it, but I guess I heeded it. It was scary, I can tell you..I guess my brain kind of saw signs that I didn't and put it together to something to create a picture, I don't know. Your brain is a being with its own life :)
I want a dog, but god it's so hard to decide what kind of dog. I want a small one, first I wanted a parson russel terrier, but I think they are too energic for me. I want a white dog, but then I read more about norfolk terriers, and they seem to be a good choice. They look friendly and kind of loyal and like "I will love you forever" haha! exactly what I want. That doesn't mean that I'm going to buy a dog now, but I will one day..and I'm not going to wait forever :)
..probably because it feels like my brain is going crazy. I'm not, haha! It looks like a mess!
It's kind of fun, I saw a bunch of paintings last week, and got so inspired that I had to buy new paints. It's almost more fun to mix the colors yourself and buy 5 bigger tubes than buying those small onse that always dry so fast...by that way I copied a little bit.. but hahah! I don't know what to say..haha! I'm so tired that I could sleep standing up! I have written an essay, kind of a "B-uppsats"..an essey of more importance on a higher level that usually...
By the way, look at this cake, look at this cake. This is the cake that I'm going to bake for my birthday! I found the recipe last Wednesday on www.allrecipes.com it's called one bowl cake III ,I like to try things in advandce, and Oh my god! the best chocolate cake I have ever tasted! It's a one bowl cake, and it's so siple to make. I don't even like chocolate that much! so I will either make chocolate frosting or white vanilla frosting, and then serve it with kiwi and some kind of other fruit.
First of all, I want to take some steps in the right direction. In the direction where things are almost like I want them to be.
So first of all, after Christmas and New year, I am going to study economics, because it feels like it's good to know that stuff.. After that I want a job, because I want to earn money (hahahah! I'm determined), because I want to buy a car..:) Right now I get like 100kr/h and that is not very much, or at least I don't think so, even though I know that It could be worse. I know that I'm not good at what i'm doing yet, or more specific, I don't have much experience. A person told me that: "you know, you have to work many hours for free before you can ask for money for doing something". Ok! maybe that is right, and I know that I have no experience yet. But they have to pay me something, I don't ask for much - If I know that I can do a good job, and set the expectations and the results at a level that I can reach, I don't think it's wrong. Because then they pay for what tey know they'll get. For example 100kr/h is not much! Even though some people say so.
I want to start working in May, but if I find a job earlier I might take it. I want a "fil. kand" I do! And the good thing is that after next semester I will just need 60 extra credits to do that, I have 97.5 right now and will have 127,5 before summer. That means that I have 7,5 credits too much, so I can skip a course in the end of the semester and either take it as a distance course in the fall, or just skip it. But I don't think that last option sound like a good one, so I'll go for the first one. I studied social pshycology before, and for a fil. kand you need 90 credits in the same subject, and maybe, maybe I'll chose to study social pshycology then...I'm not sure, but it feels like I have a plan now.
My big, huge goal right now is to find a job for the summer, because I'm NOT, nope, NOT going to work in an old people's home, OR in a hospital, because that doesn't make me feel good, or good about my self. Doing that would be like climbing up on a huge rock and jump to the ground just an inch from the top. I want to see what is up there, and admire the scenery..I want it to be summer! Oh now I started thinking about the summer..It should e summer twice a year, people would e healthier then.
Right now I want to go to IKEA and buy some stuff for my apartment, it feels like I want to change things in here. I want to do so every time when new thoughts is popping up in my head, and things are kind of messed up, but good at the same time.. like when a lot of things are happening..I think it's good. I want an armchair with that kind of sheepskin instead of farbric, it's hard to explain hahah!. I can't choose between white and grey..(proably I want it white because that was what I said first *laughing* ) and then I want to buy new curtains, and a carpet, and a lamp to put in the window, and a beautiful dark red wollen rug I saw...and throw out the carpet I have in my kitchen - I don't like that carpet anymore. Do you know what I want? white wall-to-wall carpeting, and parquet flooring. I can have new "golv" in my apartment after New year if I want to, it was like 20 years since they bought new ones (that is liek forever!!), they do not look that bad, but I think I want that..
I went to Ullared last week, and when I came there it started snowing..soo crazy! AND I'm so glad I was there before all the other people came there, I mean look at the line of people..and it was raining. I would never in my life wait outside in the rain to get in there, hahahah! I smiled an extra extra smiley smile when I walked passed all the people, haha! I have "colored" my hair, one shade darker, looks pretty good..I found this "schäslong" at Fynda, such a shame it was in black. I want to go to ikea :)
Who would you most like to be stuck in an elevator with? Least like?
Most like - With my future husband (who I haven't found yet, hahahahah!). He is going to be the person who I am going to spend all my love on. Does it sound weird?
Least like - I don't know but I guess I would rather take the stairs in that case..(I know that there are tall buildings ;) )
..It's kind of funny. They want me to bake, haha! In "real life" moms and dads should bake buns for their children *laughing*..
Some photos..I have been more creative recently then usually, made some stuff like this dress and "bag". It is smartyer with a bag made of favric than using a plastic bag, I hate to carry a backpack so i rather have a small shoulder bag/messenger bag and this kind of "bag" where i put all my school stuff, like note books and stuff. Then there is a photo of Totte and of me and kristoffer when we had a "fika" at a lake not far from here, tea and cookies :)
I can tell you something. It is sometimes hard not knowing what you want. And sometimes it is even harder knowing what you want but realizing that there it is hell of a way to there. In some way you have to create everything from the beginning, because otherwise it would not be..hmmm.. I can not come up with a word for that. But then you would live your life for someone else, and that is kind of a waste of time and does noyt sound very funny. And I think that it is important to have fun, life should be fun!
