12 posts tagged “2009”

I went to my mom yesterday, while I was waiting for something, I can't remember what, I had a look in a magazine "Drömhem & Trädgård" and found a couple of pages with DIY stuff. They had made Christmas ornaments, and there were a few I liked and decided to have a try on making some. The paper roses in the magazine was pink and purple, but I like white, so of course I made white ones, with "pearls" and different kinds of beads. I will post a photo when I have hung them in the Christmas tree (I will probably get one next weekend). When I came home I made some Christmas cards, just did something, but I think they turned out pretty good, except from that they look a little bit like those you send when you want to invite people to your wedding..:) 

I just have one problem, maybe someone can help me with this. What do you write on/in the cards? Merry Christmas - Happy New Year sounds so boring, and blessings and stuff is nothing I usually would say so I definitely don't want to write that..I guess you could write some kind of poem, but that feels really weird.. I guess I have to come up with something. I really enjoy sending and recieving post cards.

 

 

I can't decide if I like movies with abrupt ends or not, It always make you think 10 000 thoughts you never would have though if you hadn't seen the movie, but at the same time it's really annoying to never know the "real" end. This movie is one of them. It has a gray tone over it, the only character that I liked was the  (I can't remember names) main character's neighbor. .

Here he is to the left. The story is that the main character recieves a letter from an old lover, at this point his present wife leaves him. His neighbor wants to help him find this woman who has sent him this letter, because in it she wrote that her(his) son is on a trip trying to find his biological father. This she tells him so he can be prepared if someone knocks on his door. Since he had several lovers he (his neighbour decides) decides to travel around the country to visit each and everyone of them, give them a bunch of flowers and have a look in their homes to see if they have a photo or any other sign that they have a son.

 

The photo below is from one of his visits. I found it very amusing when you could see what they ate. Food so ala 1987 or something like that.. Some kind of light beige meat-square, with those kind of carrots that have a zig-zag pattern or whatever you should call it, carrots with grooves. I hate those carrots, they are soo tasteless and spongy. At least those that were frozen before they were boiled, or even worse heated in the micro oven. 

Anyway, this is how the story continues, until the end, when the main character is back where he begun. But there is some kind of hope in the last scene.. To end this, I really liked his neighbour, he was funny and looked like a guy who loves life. 

I thought it was a while since I took some photos of myself. Some people say it's egoistic, but I think it's kind of fun.

My gosh it was such long time since I added photos. iI have to be better on taking photos more often. Before I did I guess I haven't had time to do that now. But things are about to change, that is good. I have moved around the furniture in my apartment so now I feel "at home" feels good. The video is kind of crappy so there is two photos too as you can see..

I feel so different, like everything before "now" is soo awkward that I dont even want to think about it. I realize I look different too. My hair is so long that 'I almost have to have it cut, and it's darker too, besides that I really have to do something about it because.. hahah! I could look better..I won't even show you

 

 

I saw a ferris wheel, I love them. And then I bought a new skirt on H&M 149kr, really cheap. What did I do next? The company for which I work for had "forgot" tp pay my salary, wasn't the first time. Since Christmas is in this month I don't work as much as I have done, that means less money. I realized that I had no money at all, because I had to buy contact lenses and then I had to go to the dentist, and fix my car so I had to take a loan (studie lån). That is possible because I study and you can do that to finance your studied, the interest charge is not high at all, and like 99.9% of all students take this loan. I just haven't done that because I was working, but that almost takes too much energy I mean to go to school during the days and work in the evenings. Or maybe I should say I have realized that now. My job wasn't even well paid 3300kr/month that is like 100kr/hour = 14,5 $ or 480$/month - You can't live on that.

 

 

I found this "hand" that I got from my sister.. I think it was last year. I kind of like it. When I was at my grandma's last week she asked my dad and me if we couldn't go down in the basement to check if it smelled like bad in there (she is selling her house and wanted to know, and didn't dare to go down there herself), and so we did. My god! we went through that hole, that was like insane. Haha! Looks like a dungeon!

 

 And to end this I REALLY like this candy, like the color and the taste. I try not to think of what it's made of..:)

 

Ok! I don't know if I have come to some kind of conclusion. (I'm going to use weird words and I guess it might be difficult to understand what I'm trying to say) But at least I'm not as angry as I was yesterday. We had a seminar about "growing in meetings" "Väx i möten", (How you can grow as a person in meetings you have with people you meet in your daily life), that was what it was meant to be about, but the only thing the lecturer talked about was "deep meetings". That was too deep for me! I bet that people would say that I don't know anything about deep talk or meetings, but right now it feels like I have had enough! I'm not in the mood for deep talk or "deep meetings" that don't give me anything in return. That is very egoistic in some way, but true.

When it comes to the friends problem I think that I can do something, I can say what I feel. But sometimes that is hard, and not appropriate. Sometimes people that you know are in a bad mood, or more the-opposite-of-being-filled-with-energy than usual. I respect that. I do. I don't blame anyone even though it might seem like I do.

What I realized was that I was angry so I let that feeling come and go, and it worked so much better than it usually does. I'm not angry anymore. But my point is that I guss that I'm angry too often and that might be a reason to why I grid my teeth and have this jaw/ear problem. So now I have to investigate what this might be about. Since I have had this teeth/jaw problem for like 2 years it must be something old, but it started to get annoying and painful last October. So I guess I have to think about what I did then, hahah! It's crazy to think about things like this I know, haha!

The question is if I'm afraid of those deep meetings, because they are like gambling. You put something in and you can get something in return, but you can never be sure about that so that. I'm not afraid to lose anything, it's just that..hahah! I don't know. I don't think I have that problem, nope. Just in some situations. This has to be continued too..

 

I hadn't swum under the water for about 7 years so that is why it looks weird, haha!

I can't believe that I made this, a "krypto" first time in my life :)